First Days of the Semester

So school has officially commenced and everything has been so very hectic. The first day I was planning on parking in the garage on campus but they had blocked it off. WHY? I don't know. Then I tried to park to the parking lot next to the garage and THAT was blocked off as well. So then I tried parking in another major parking lot and IT was blocked off too. At that point I would have just ran over those stupid orange cones but next to it was a freaking traffic officer. I wanted to scream at them. WHO THE HELL BLOCKS OFF ALL THE FREAKING PARKING LOTS ON THE FIRST DAY SO NO ONE CAN PARK ANYWHERE?!?!?! Stupid institution. Not to mention that going from lot to lot, there was plenty of backed up traffic. I was SO late to my first class because of this and all I could say to my cousin who I was ranting on the phone with was "WHAT THE FUCK?" "what the HELL is going on?" repeatedly over and over again. She then realized I was going crazy and so she went to class for me. But then right when she got there I miraculously found a parking spot (hallelujah) and proceeded on to class.

I should add in here that I was fasting (yes, I am fasting this year) and so later had to ask for forgiveness from God for having such a yapping mouth.

Other then that, I am just trying to figure out which books to actually overspend on and which ones I wont really need. It's amazing how much you have to spend to acquire that little piece of paper so you can hang it on your wall with a boring frame in your office when you get a job. I doubt every time that I'm going to look at my degree that I'll swell up with pride. But, that's just me. I definitely believe education is very important and it opens your eyes to things, yes it is all very true. However, I just don't believe it ought to be so damn expensive.

Aside from all the hullabaloo, the start of the school year somehow is making me feel more lonely than usual. It's like everyone I see has someone to talk to and a lot of people I know either graduated or they aren't the people I just love to be around. My best friend always runs off home the first chance she gets and if her boyfriend doesn't have work or class, he tags along with her. He is always with her. So she never even calls me or anything on her breaks. I don't blame him though, he is a good kid. And she was like this before him. I frankly give up on trying with her she's always busy with everything else. There is always something. My other good friend, she's taking her DAT soon so she is skipping classes to study. That is definitely understandable. I can't wait for it to be over so we can hang out! I think the reason I feel loneliness is because last year I had a boyfriend and his apartment was very close to campus so I'd just hang out with him on breaks. On top of that, he used to work at the university center and so if I had nothing to do, he was always there. I definitely miss that. Well, I miss him. But he is an entirely different story. I just find myself on my laptop a lot in between breaks when I really should be hanging out with friends. *Sigh*.

Oh, well. I'm sure it'll get better, especially when the assignments start. I already have a few, but true to form, I am procrastinating ;o).

At the moment: every-freaking-one around me is eating and it smells so mouth-watering-good. I just want to grab the burger next to the guy sitting next to me's hand and swallow it like a pig. I guess this is the point of fasting. Hunger and self-control over it.